FAMILY TAPES (2019)
You roll your pretty eyes at me; I know you see things that I don’t see
I’d like to wrap myself around you for a while
Your parents taught you how to dance, how to tie your shoes and roll your pants
I’ve always thought that I just can’t
Sometimes I feel trapped in my head, in a world of grey and blue and red
I’d like to rest my heavy head down for a while
So often in panic mode, I breath and I sing and I kiss with my eyes closed
I’d like to let my heavy thoughts go for a while
You pulled out your family tapes, to digitalize, to reacquaint
Hours and hours of lazy Saturdays
Your brother looked me in the face, and stole me with his bright blue gaze
I’m so happy he stayed
I saw the homeless man, checking out the Mercedes Benz
Everything was hilarious to me then
Cause I fight and fight it you see: health, unconditional love and good sleep
He’s no different than me; We’re all just fighting to be free
MY MOTHER THE Moon (2018)
1. TURNTABLE
In the arms of a lover, in the arms of your son
You lay your head heavy, you're the only one
Won't you sit for a while? Won't you rest yourself?
You know it ain't such a shame to have lost yourself
You know it ain't such a shame to have lost yourself
Three years and a bottle of cheap red wine
All my sacred sins and all your dirty lies
And I ride, and I ride, and I ride, and I ride
Keep riding even when I don't know why
Keep riding even when I don't know why
She said, "If my heart was a turntable,
And my belly was the speaker and my soul the needle,"
Oh, she said, "If my heart was a turntable,
And my belly was the speaker and my soul the needle."
Meet me in the garden by the flowers blue
Where the trees stretch and wrap their arms around you
And they fill you up til you don't know what to do
On a winter's night when everything is new
On a winter's night when everything is new
She said, "If my heart was a turntable,
And my belly was the speaker and my soul the needle,"
Oh, she said, "If my heart was a turntable,
And my belly was the speaker and my soul the needle."
2. A PETAL HERE, A PETAL THERE
Darling, won't you rest your weary eyes?
There's no use in waiting for sunrise
If the stars begin to dim
And if the earth ceases to spin
No matter where I am or where I've been
A person needs a place to rest her head
A place to put her burdens down to rest
I think I'll join the working class
I just want my work to last
Tell me now, is that too much to ask?
Sometime's there ain't no right; there ain't no wrong
There ain't a new way to put it in a song
I'm sorry, Dad. I'm sorry, Mom.
I think I've known it all along
Sometimes there ain't no right; there ain't no wrong
A flower for the gaze you shared with me
A stone for all our shitty memories
A petal here, a petal there
A petal for your lovely hair
A penance for the things I could not share
Darling, won't you rest your weary eyes?
There's no use in waiting for sunrise
If the stars begin to dim
And if the earth ceases to spin
No matter where I am or where I've been
3. AMERICAN POOR
There's a new generation of poor
Faces clean and their eyes are pure
Empty stomachs but their mouths are full
American proud, American poor
They'll send you a free book every year
A discount for your diagnosis, Dear
They'll give you pills to take away your fears
American poor, American here
I left my innocence in the sea
With all things that I made believe
Shadow thing, it's just me
Make believe, make believe
The people are working silently
Sweatin' in their own salty sea
Now they're setting fire out in the streets
American proud, American poor
There can be no greater thing
Than to love a stranger
Yes, there can be no greater thing
American proud, American poor
We treat the people who serve us like shit
Cause nothing would ever really come of it
It's fair if you say it's fair. It ain't me so it's not there
American proud, American poor
4. MY MANY DAYS
How do I spend my many days?
With all my restless ways
Got me feelin' so strange
Paintings on a cave
How do I spend my youthful days?
They think I lost my way
Every day we change, we change
Life's a messy maze
How do I spend my numbered days?
Can't you see we're all the same
I'd like to rid myself of shame
Well that would be the day
Cause I know we're gonna win
Cause I know we're gonna win
Yes, I know we're gonna win
How do I spend my human days?
She said, "Just don't lose faith."
Well that would be the day, Babe
That would be the day.
5. SWINGER IN THE TREES
Baby, it's been a long year
Flowers fading in the window and I'm still here
Lately, I lost my courage
I'm just a speck in the ocean, a leaf in the forest
So why then all this fear?
You've got to have faith
In the small things
I don't know much, but I know that pity is a sick thing
I saw my brother
He was hiding in the mountains
How quickly we forget
The beauty that surrounds us
All these strangers
Passing by me
But we choose not to see,
Yeah we choose not to see (I wanna be)
Oh, we choose not to see
There is always hope,
There is always hope.
There is always hope (I wanna be)
A swinger in the trees
6. DARLING DEAR
There's holes in my shoes and there's a light inside of you
I can't quite recognize
Cracks in the sidewalk, children swimming in the leaves
I can't quite recognize
Oh, ya know, let's lay one low in the alley where we used to meet
Oh, ya know, let's take it slow. There's room to grow, there's room to grow
There's room to grow
Oh little girl inside of me,
I'm sorry for the things you've seen,
My baby darling
Nothing hurts quite worse
Than when the ones you love the most
Can't stop their suffering
Oh, ya know, my darling dear,
There's a light that takes away all fear.
Oh, ya know, my darling dear,
It's okay to be happy here.
It's okay to be happy!
Are we born with pain and shame and greed
Are we meant to house such suffering?
Tell me what you think.
I think we're born to live and love
And count the endless stars above
While we're here.
7. MY MOTHER THE MOON
Oh sacred fallacy,
What have you done to me?
My hands aren't clean,
My hands aren't clean.
My mother the moon
Mass tables too
Stranger in me, stranger in you
What are we to do?
Oh secret wisdom,
Tell me what has become.
What did I do?
What did I do?
Oh lover ecstasy!
Killer inside of me.
Searching for harmony
David who lost his star,
She hasn't gone very far
In every note
In every song
My mother the moon,
Mass tables too
Stranger in me,
Stranger in you
What are we to do?
8. ON AND ON
Desolate ain't done no wrong
So I ride along and I write a song
Been goin' on for way too long
And on and on and on and on
Rain don't bother me tonight
The lights just seem to be so bright
Well, honey babe, maybe you're right
But I forgot just how to fight
On and on and on and on,
Honey babe, did I do ya wrong?
On and on and on and on,
Gonna find a place where I belong
I've got a bag of tricks and a box of hats
I'm gonna make you cry; I'm gonna make you laugh
I was broken, do you remember that?
When I laid my head down on your lap
Desolate, ain't done no wrong
Well maybe if I write it in a song
And we can all just sing along
And on and on and on and on
9. MODERN MAN
Show me sentiment
Show me heaven sent
Show me fields of harvest blue
Show me a monster as our highest hand
He's a puppet too
He's a puppet too
Show me blasphemy
Modern government
Where the weakest hand is your own
Where the modern man is a factory
And the lazy boy his throne
And the funny thing is he don't even know
My pain it doesn't go away,
It grows distant
In the morning we woke up and strolled around the mission
I couldn't sleep last night
I just kept thinking about the clocks in my grandmother's kitchen
About the woman down in Nashville soaked to her bone
Now I'm walking around San Fran like everything is gold
Show me the moment when I don't give a fuck
Love is love, and love is enough
Show me the moment when I'm in ecstasy
Sacred knowing, love is all we need
Love is all we need
10. AIN'T NO DIFFERENCE
There is a house
There ain't no rooms
I've got some pretty lies
I've got some decent truths
I'll reinvent myself
I'll work in silence
You'll be my benefit
I'll be your witness
Lay it for me down now
Brother's on the sidewalk
Sister's in the bedroom
Voices in his head now
The house is gone now
It's an empty lot now
There ain't no difference
cartoon Moon (2016)
1. GOLDEN SKY
Sometimes I wish I was a leaf
Sometimes I wish I was a tall tree
Sometimes I wish I was a deep sea swimmer
Sometimes I wish I was a rock
Sometimes I wish I was a tall corn stalk
Sometimes I wish to be anything I'm not
We must not lose sight
We must not lose sight
Of that golden, golden sky
Or the mirrors in your eyes
Sometimes I wish to be your favorite vinyl
The water boiling on your tea kettle
These feelings move around but never, never settle
Sometimes I wish to be your walking stick
Sometimes I think that I don't even exist
Sometimes I just want to tell you all of this
2. RED PONY
And I saw you on the street
Hiding underneath the trees
Oh, I lost you in my sleep
And you found me in the deep
I know the road sometimes seems empty
Passing mile after mile
My old soul's to old to go on
Too young to stay a while
We were somewhere on the ocean
Water blinding to my eyes
Yes I've been dreaming every day,
And I've been dreaming every night
But all the words you said, I lost them
But I remember diving in
Sinking further in the ocean
Sinking further in my sin
3. ALL I REALLY NEED TO KNOW
Honey, I know we gave it our best
Tried to listen to the wispy wind of the west
Following the way the leaves have blown
Well maybe I'm made to be alone
Oh, you know I feel your flame and your fire
Woman and man I feel your child
My hand in my pocket; I'll carry your stone
Well maybe I'm made to be alone
Our hearts laid on the road
Mingled and mixed with the earth below
We're all in heaven, Lord told me so
That's all I really need to know
Burning bush in the desert night
Will you cast your flame, will you share your light?
The ground laden in war horse bones
Well maybe I'm made to be alone
Holy mountain, fountain flow
Caught in the shade of the cloud shadow
Well things they come and things they go
Maybe I'm made to be alone
So gather your arrow and gather your bow
Pierce me with you sin, pierce me with your soul
I guess we'll never really know
Maybe I'm made to be alone
4. AIN’T GOT TIME
I've been walking on the water's surface, Lord,
You know I ain't got time
I've been playin in the devil's fire furnace
Oh, you know I ain't got time
I've been drinking from a dirty well, oh Lord,
You know I ain't got time
I've been casting out mighty spells
Oh, you know I ain't got time
I've been swimming in a deep sea current
Oh, you know I ain't got time
And the good Lord's face, I once saw it
Now, you know, I ain't got time
I've been playing with a dirty deck of cards
You know I ain't got time
I've been digging holes in my backyard
Oh you know, I ain't got time
5. DEEP BLUE SEA
If you find yourself weary
If you find yourself broken down
Brother, you're not alone
If you find yourself heartbroken
Sinner in a sacred place
Sister, you are safe
If you find yourself feeling lost
I know the road can feel so long
Mother, you're not alone
If you find yourself a falling leaf
Maybe you'll drift right next to me
Cause we all swim in the same deep blue sea
6. KICKAPOO CREEK
I just wanna go where the grass is green
In another land, in another dream
Right outside my window
I just wanna feel dirt on my hands
In the green, green valley of the fertile land
Right outside my window
Right in front of me
I just wanna go where the soft wind blows
And the mountains are covered in the cloud shadows
Right outside my window
I just want to go where the poets preach
And the children laugh and dance and sing
Right outside my window
Right in front of me
I just want to go where the sea takes me
In the shade of my brother, old oak tree
Right outside my window
I just want to go to the Kickapoo Creek
Where the lover is you and the lover is me
Right outside my window
Right in front of me
7. BROTHERS
Don't cry for me, lover
Don't shed a tear
Let your laughter ring out
I can hear it in my ears
Your love- the ocean
I went for a swim
Tried to build a boat
But I still drowned in it
You see, lover,
Sorrow follow me around
It picks me up and it holds me down
It follows me from town to town
It was there even when you were around
But I try never to make a sound
My brothers, my brothers,
How I miss your soul
I could feel your tragedy
I could feel it years ago
My brothers, my brothers!
How I miss your soul
I could feel your tragedy
I could feel it in my bones
Sweet
Sweet
Sweet sorrow come take me home
8. IN THE MORNING
And I said please, just let me be
And in the morning, I see my lover
He keeps calling out to me
And by the noontide, I see my sister
She keeps calling out to me
And in the tree tops I see my true self
She keeps callin' out to me
And in the valley I see my ego
And it keeps calling out to me
And in the forest, I see my young self
She keeps calling out to me
Words resounding, and words so softly
They keep calling out to me
And in the churches, I see the sinners
They keep singing out to me
And in the downtown bars I see them true folk
They keep calling out to me
9. LONG WAY DOWN
Strangers swimming on the street
I hear you callin’ out to me
So suddenly, so suddenly
And it's a long, long way down
Honey, I can't rescue you
I don't know the things to do
And I don't think you want me to
Pleasure filled delirium
Moon and stars and earth and sun
Moon and stars and earth and sun
Oh, the more I know, the more I don't
They found you hangin' from a rope
Please say hello to my good old folks
10. PEACE MY SOUL
Push it back, back into the ground
I've been waiting for so long
Seeds I've sown, songs I've sung
I've been waiting for so long
Peace, oh peace, my soul
Last spring I planted seeds of hope
Peace, oh peace, my soul
I'm waiting for them to grow
Months have passed, and so have friends
Well, I'm not ready for the end
“Hell,” she said, “hell it's been”
I'm not ready for the end
Hurt and lies and last good-byes
And I will not close my eyes to the truth
I will not lie it's been a long winter without you
Birds in V's and life on trees and
To all those coming to me in my sleep
It's been a long winter without you